Friday, December 31, 2010

Decade Ends

plumeriaImage by ruurmo via FlickrI'm looking back at 2010 and I don't quite know whether to tell it to #suckit or to feel some nostalgia. It was both the best year of my life, and one of the shittier ones.

The Good: I was hired at the job of my dreams doing health education.
The Bad: Contract finances ran out and I was laid off in June.
The Ugly: I was laid off from a second job in November.
The Resolution: Find a job I excel at.

The Good: I made a lot of new friends.
The Bad: I didn't get to go to BlogHer10 and meet them in person.
The Ugly: I lost a close friend due to drama.
The Resolution: Continuing working to avoid the drama and remember what a mutually respectful relationship is.

The Good: I moved in with A in October.
The Bad: I was laid off in November (hrm, think this has been a bad thing for me?)
The Ugly: Being together 24/7 with the man has put a strain on our relationship.
The Resolution: Find a job and continue having a social life to keep us flowing more smoothly.

The Good: I finally have health insurance, even while unemployed.
The Bad: I had to go to the ER once this year.
The Ugly: Healthcare coverage is fucking expensive.
The Resolution: Find a job I excel at that has health insurance coverage.

The Good: I continued to learn more and more about who I am and what I want from life.
The Bad: Sometimes the things I learned about myself weren't as positive as I could hope for.
The Ugly: Those things that weren't as positive have been heavy on my heart.
The Resolution: Start one-on-one counseling ASAP, couple's counseling follows shortly thereafter.

The Good: Toward the end of the year, my chronic pain seemed to have slacked a bit.
The Bad: The days of pain that I *do* still have feel worse than they did before.
The Ugly: I am still undiagnosed.
The Resolution: Continue treating my body well and researching what can be done to help.

The Good: I lost weight!
The Bad: I didn't lose much weight.
The Ugly: Me in a swimsuit.
The Resolution: A membership to The Y was a Christmas gift from A and I plan on using it daily.

Ultimately it was a good year. I grew, I fell more in love with A and we've progressed further into our relationship (even when things were hard). I got to see my family and friends in Oregon more than once during the year, I made new Bay Area friends who have become bastions of support in my life. I have been loved, supported, hugged and kissed more this year than ever before. I have smiled, laughed, guffawed, grinned and danced with joy more in 2010 than any year previous.

2011 promises to bring a Golden Birthday, trips back to the Pacific Northwest, a new place of employment, the longest bike ride I've ever taken (Cycle for Sight) and a hotter Inoculatted - she'll be happier, more fulfilled and feel better about herself a year from now. Just you watch.

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Tuesday, December 14, 2010

She won't let you fly, but she might let you sing

Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most 

Decorating a Christmas tree in Alaska in 1986.

She has turned into my biggest rock, willing to support me in anything I choose to do.

I love her.

Monday, December 13, 2010

Ai yi yi yi!

Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh

A photograph taken of my friend @Ewokmama during my first visit to San Francisco ... we had a margarita party ... and there was a sombrero involved. How does that not make someone laugh?

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Hope over Fear

Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day

Oh how amazing it would be ... a public health advocate, the First Lady, a beautiful woman. AWESOME.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Memory - all alone in the moonlight

Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory

I like that so many of my positive memories involve the same people in my life. I think that's pretty awesome.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Because the night belongs to lovers

Day 04 - A picture of your favorite night 

I met the love of my life on August 6, 2009. This is that night.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

You gotta have friends

Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest 

Internets, meet @AdmiralBOH. We've known one another for 16 years now. We have the kind of relationship where we pick up after not seeing one another (we haven't lived in the same town since we were 15) and we haven't missed a beat. 

I can bring TheAdmiral anything without fear she'll think less of me. She, too, knows that she can bring me anything and I will love her just the same. That's an awesome relationship to have.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Who are you? Who who? Who who?

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with ten facts 

1. I'm the girl in that picture.
2. I drink a lot of tea.
3. I get paid to photograph weddings.
4. I have two Bachelor's degrees.
5. I am currently unemployed.
6. This is week 3 of unemployment and I have read 6 books thus far.
7. I like the word forthcoming.
8. My favorite color is peacock-blue.
9. I watch a lot of reality TV.
10. "Baby, for a pretty girl, you make a lot of ugly faces," is a regular statement at my house. (I'm okay with that ... it's true.)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Liquid Silk from Eden Fantasys

Sex toys - EdenFantasys adult toys storeFor a couple of years now, I've been involved with a review program at Eden Fantasys, and I've always been very pleased with the process. I've blogged a few times before about the sex toys and products they've generously supplied me with, and I have another to share with you.

This time around, I was lucky enough to be able to sample the Liquid Silk. The many lubricants offered on the Eden Fantasys website were a little overwhelming at first, but upon reading the 300+ reviews, seeing the super-high safety rating, and knowing that all of my customer service experiences with Eden Fantasys has been positive (in case I hated it, yanno), I tried something new.

Unscented, clean feeling, and without residue, Liquid Silk added even more comfort and pleasure to my already steady sex life. With the easy "pump-action" topper, using this lube didn't take away from the intimacy or the spontaneity of sex. Clean-up was unneeded, and I noticed that on the parts of my body the lubricant soaked in were supremely soft.

I would recommend both Liquid Silk and getting any of your favorite lubricants from Eden Fantasys. Their customer service is quick, motivated to please and easy to deal with. Their products are high quality, rated for safety and stand the test of time.

(Disclaimer: I provided this review in return for a free product. Eden Fantasys allows me to share my honest opinion openly and in no way influenced how I truly feel about this product. Mom, this blog post is fake, I don't have sex. I am pure and innocent.)

Happy Holidays, you have no job

I lost my job last week. I'm coming to terms with the fact that it's ultimately not my fault, and that I was miserable at the place anyway, but after a vacation to Portland (I will never move back), I am coming back to the "real' world and remembering that I don't have a job. I also used half my income from my project management job to pay rent & living costs and the other half to pay down debt. I have some small debts left, but I have hardly any savings.


I have a $30/week writing offer, which I will accept, but other than that, I'm applying to jobs all over (ALL OVER) and trying not to let the money-based stress overtake me. I'm taking my medications, trying to keep my depression at bay, but I'm worried. I have no appetite, I only want to sleep, I feel like losing myself in reality TV, and I'm striving not to pull away from everyone and everything. A and I have talked about rejoining a gym together (thank you to The Biggest Loser, perhaps?) and have a few creative outlets I can use to help.


Money is tight for me. A knows it and is going to be supportive, I have faith in that. However, I don't like to depend on someone for help in just keeping my head above water. So I apply. My goal is another 100 jobs before the weekend ... which will make almost 250 jobs in the past two weeks. 250 jobs and I've not received a single call back from them.


I need my friends right now.
I need my friends to remind me that it will get better.
I need my friends to support me as I pull away and get quiet.
I need my friends to share more love with me now than ever before.
I need my friends right now.